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dear reader,

this entry is just for u (yes, u!) sorry to inform u that i can't update this blog for the time being because as all of u know, this week is my wedding week. there are a lot of things i wanna share with u, a lot of photos too..but i can't find the time..

tomorrow will be my wedding at wan's side..the final wedding..so today and a few days after tomorrow, i will not be available to provide u with updates..soooo sorryy! but after everythings go calm again, i'll write u lot of entries oke? and photos too, i won't forget..

btw, u are aware that this is a wedding blog right? thus, there will be an ending soon to this blog..*sadness*.. but until then, i hope u'll look forward of reading all about the wedding!

love, hugs and kisses from me,

mazuin.

nikah - perasaan saya.

cerita fasal perasaan oke?

bila masuk hari sabtu, perasaan ni dah jadi berkecamok yg teramat sgt.. sebab nervous + byk benda nak fikir n nak uruskan. tp alhamdulillah, sampai je kak as (kakak make-up saya yg comel) ke bilik pengantin utk start melakukan kepakaran dia, saya telah berjaya utk let go, i stopped thinking about everything, except being pretty during the majlis.. jadi, muka pun tersenyum je lah..

masa dah siap make-up, masa nak pakai baju nikah tu, tiba-tiba perut ni shrink..like literally, from inside..so, after dah salin baju, kak as nak pakai kan tudung, masa tu mulut tak berenti ckp kat kak as, "kecutnya perut saya ni" ..."eii takotnya"... dan beberapa keluhan lain..

perasaan masa tu hanya tuhan saja yg tau, (and of course org yg dah nikah dia tau lah jugak, sbb dah penah rasa)..n saya adalah si perempuan..bayangkan lelaki yg memang ada tanggungjawab masa hari nikah tu, mcm mana la dia nye nervous??

so, disebabkan terasa berat pulak nak bayangkan perasaan wan, i called him.. hahahahha n guess what, he didn't say much...dia seboleh-bolehnya tak nak ckp fasal nervousness..dia kate "wan nak focus" kesian dia..dia tak pernah se-nervous tu.. darling, u were obviously nervous, and that's cute..

tiba-tiba mak naik atas and ckp "wan dah sampai, turunlah" hadoi...!! gile..!!!!!! masa ni, jantung rasa nk tercabot, kaki terketar-ketar nak turun tangga, tangan sejuk, senyum terasa pelik..dah tak nmpak org kiri kanan..that was the most nervous part of all.,

bila dah duduk kat tepi wan, atas bantal nikah tu, wan pun masuk, and duduk atas bantal nikah tu..then tok kadi start..masa ni, perasaan saya adalah tenang..sebab, i know that that was happening and i know that wan's role was greater, and i should just sit and be pretty and just listen carefully to whatever the kadi had to say..mana la tau kot-kot dia tanya something masa aku tengah berangan ke?? hahahaha

rupanya, pihak perempuan yg kena keluar suara dulu..baca lafaz yg ada dlm borang tu..nasib baik masa tu tenang aje..mcm mana tak tenang, serasa saya, saya hanya nampak 5 org je dlm rumah time tu..wan, tok kadi, dua org saksi dan ayah. org lain sume saya tak nampak walau pun mereka duduk disekeliling ruang tamu yg penuh dan sesak..hahaha *tenang konon!* hahahahah

perjalanan majlis nikah:

after perempuan baca lafaz tu, ayah pulak baca lafaz wali dia..dia wakilkan kt tok kadi utk nikah kan..then tok kadi baca khutbah nikah..(ada khutbah oke?? baru aku tau)..

then tok kadi suro sign a few forms, (which i didn't bother knowing what were those forms that i signed)..ayah pun ada sign2..and of course wan pun..

after that tok kadi bisik dekat wan, hanya yg lima tu je yg dengar sbb tok kadi btul2 bisik, dia minta wan test baca lafaz kabul tu..wan pun sebut (berbisik jugak) "aku terima nikahnya mazuin bt hashim dengan mas kahwinnya 80ringgit tunai." then tok kadi tu beritau yg lafaz utk kl lain..hilangkan both "nya" tu.. then wan angguk faham, tapi tak test lagi pun.. masa tu terfikir jugak, wan btulke faham? tak perlu ke test dulu lg skali?

and then tok kadi hulur tangan..masa tu..peluh sejuk semua dah makin sejuk dan terus membeku..seram.ahahaha..then terus tok kadi sebut ijabnya..then dia goyang tangan sikit dan wan terus sebut kabulnya..then tok kadi tanya saksi, both kata sah..

ya allah..i'm married..one word "indahnya" pernikahan tersebut.

then ada lafaz ta'liq by wan, then doa + tok kadi inform sikit tentang apa nk buat dengan sijil nikah tu nnti..then abiss..

so, nikah = CHECKED!

rama-rama

dalam perut saya ada rama-rama besar (there is a big butterfly in my stomach).. terasa makin rancak rama-rama tu berjoget bila tgk ticker di atas menunjukkan tinggal 1 hari shj lagi..(cuba tgk tgn pengantin kt ticker di atas,, dah pgg dah..hehe.esok bley pgg tgn wan, tuhan izinkan dah..*senyum*)

mmg mcm ni ke semua bride-to-be akan rasa? haritu masa nk bertunang pun kecut perut..inikan pulak nak nikah.

harini bolehla ckp ayat ni, "esok, saya akan dinikahkan dgn tunang saya" :)

anyway, smlm tok kadi dah kol utk reconfirm time and place of nikah..mak oi garangnya suara tok kadi..gasaklah wan nnti.hehehe, nasib baik org laki yg kene sebut kabul tu nnti..nasib baik org perempuan tak payah ckp apape selain "setuju!"..always remember awin, sebut "setuju" nanti sopan2, oke?

inai 1st round dah pakai..pelamin dah pasang..i'm telling myself, "this is really happening", tapi kenapalah sampai harini still rasa mcm mimpi??

semalam dan hari ni berderet pulak org ckp tak bley dtg to my wedding..nak tahu apa perasaan saya? sedih sgt2. like seriously. i know that they have reasons..tp still..kwn2 saya tak mau dtg wedding saya! :(

from now on, if i can't attend someone's wedding, i should not tell her a day or two days before her wedding..because i don't want them to be devastated, like me. :(((((..skrg saya terus takot mau baca sms dr kwn2, msg kt inbox facebook and especially wall kt event facebook.sbb saya takot terbaca msg "mazuin, sory..." :(( dah la tak usah fikir. mari kita fikir tentang keseronokan esok :)..

so, what's happening today? wedding cake sampai..bunga sampai, bley buat hntaran, n hias bilik pengantin..oh yess.."isi" utk doorgift juga smpai hari ni..at least one of them..:) lg satu esok br smpai..

kwn2 yg nk tolong2, mlm ni tak pyh dtg pun takpe, esok lepas nikah stay smpai mlm laaa..sbb esok lah byk benda nk buat :)

i love u perempuan2 ku, ur here when i need u the most,, i'll balas budi kamuorg bila "hari" kamuorg masing2 smpai nnti ye?

2 more days to go

sejak cuti haritu, masa dah terasa makin suntuk, dats why tiada entry baru..:(,. byk benda dah jadi dlm 2-3 hari ni.

1st, my good friends from mrsm mersing dah buat satu bachelorette dinner for me. it was a blast. best sgt bila ada org ingat kite..:)))))))) *naksenyumbykbykkali*.. mybe later in december, i'll throw them a bachelorette slumber party pulak. harap2 sempat. :) i'll try my best. girks,,i know u r reading this..zillion thanks to u girls, i will not forget that night., forever. n the gift..stiap kali kite pakai msti teringat awk2 semua..oppps, hahaha, anyway bila ada msa nnti, kite upload gmba ye, tak smpat.! sori!!

2nd, ada satu insiden baju nikah yg menyayat hati. i thank allah soooo very much for listening to my prayer and mengizinkan perkara tersebut diselesaikan dgn cpt.alhamdulillah..yang ini i can't share with u people. maaf ye, cuma, jgn lupa smbahyang..insyaallah dia akan tolong.

3rdly, kejadian bunga telur. my mum tgh pegi beli telur, i was at home dia call suro check if telur gred b muat letak dlm kain net bunga telur tu. so i did. terkejut monyet i bile mendapati bhw net bunga telur yg bli kt nilai 3 tu nak balut jari pun tak muat..haha naseb hari tu baru selasa. sempat nk repair. sejumlah kecil je mcm tu..bukan semua..n mlm smlm, mak dan ira tolong, semua da selesai. alhamdulillah.

kwn2, duduk bersilalah anda di kedai utk kira bunga telur yg anda bli tu satu per satu. if dlm satu kotak ada 50 pttnya, pastikan..n check net nya!

4th, smlm kami cari paper bag. dulu semua paper bag kt nilai harga rm2.80 per paket (isinya 10)..sekarang semua rm3.30.. wlaupun beza cuma rm0.50, cuba bygkan kalau anda bli 1000 keping..jadi, pegi kedai hujung2 yg lgsung takde org, usha..kot-kot ada yg rm2.50 ke? trust me, ada!.. tp bear in mind, harga ni 2011 punya hrga. kalau kau nk kawen 3thn lg, of course tk dpt dah hrga mcm tu. :)

5th, baju dan aksesori utk snding kt rumah wan dah amek smlm..lega! hari ni,khamis,, diorg nk dtg pasang pelamin dah. i guess this is really happening!

6th, i love my bakal suami more and more everyday..:) i'm happy!..

tak jadi blacklist

semalam kami pergi fitting keseluruhan baju2 yang nak dipakai pada 26/27 Mac dan 2 April. Alhamdulillah semua oke. though ada jugak yang kena alter sikit lagi..tapi everything's fine..

butik pengantin di bangi itu tak jadi utk di blacklist.. one-time mistake is forgiveable. they did oke yesterday. i'm happy :))))

pick up baju 23 Mac 2011..iaitu 4 hari sebelum majlis..

(iaitu 5 hari dari sekarang sbb tinggal 9 hari sahaja lagi..arhhhggggghh!!)

semua baju bersanding/persalinan/gown = CHECKED!
pelamin both sides = CHECKED!

tengok tu, dah dekat!

sikit lagi bride nak sampai ke groom..

kesian groom tggu lama..dah lama dah tgn dia hulur cmtu..:)

Perasaan sebenar? Gelisah. Especially about the preparation of the wedding..

fb events

selain kad jemputan, i have invited everybody through fb jugak, standard la kan? as much as i hate to admit, i am a facebook freak..asalkan online aje, msti bukak facebook dulu.
so, my event invitation to my wedding tu,. i notice ada yg dah post something kat my event wall, and then that post dissapear..hmm..(tulah sape suruh jadik facebook freak, yg itu pun u notice jugak..) deleted, i guess..it should mean something,kan? do i care? sadly..yess..

ntah la..nak buek camno..tak kuaso den doh..lalalaa~

hiccup lagi..! --ending--

please baca entry yg sebelum ini dulu, then baru baca entry yg ini kalau tidak kau spoil cerita, faham??

dalam masa diri ini berdebar-debar, jantung pun terstop-stop,, then he finally answered.
he answered.."yang raw masih ada, semua ada dlm cd..cuma yg editted je yg semua abes.."

oh kelegaan!..alhamdulillahirabbilalamin.

dia sambung ckp, "jadi abg d*n harap maz faham la.."

n i answered, "iyer lah, nak buat cmne..jgn rush la..take ur time"

dlm hati marah sgt, kalau dia hantar album tu on time, laptop dia belum kena curi kan? dah la lambat, mintak extension, then skrg force majeure took place, apa bley buat..mangsanya siapa? iyer..saya adalah mangsanya, and i am a paying customer.tak kasihan ke kat org yg sebok bertukang nak mendirikan masjid ni ha?
(force majeure means an occurence of something that is out of anyone's control)

apapun mmg dah dipesan supaya dia jgn rush. kalau tak byar mhl2, gamba asal siap je..takpelah abg d*n..take ur time, i'm not in a rush anyway,, just a bit frustrated,..

takpe, nnti masa wedding (yup, still with him), i'll make sure i'll hold a big amount of money sbg final payment..slagi u tak bg album or slagi i tak puas hati dgn album yg u bg walau on time sekalipun, i won't release ur money..when i say a BIG amount of money, i mean a BIG amount of money, faham?

i have to do this.. be fair to me. please.

kesimpulannya kwn2 bride-to-be, jgn kasi muka kt photographer anda atau sesiapa, kalau dia janji bulan februari,. korg telefon dia bulan februari. jgn tggu mac mcm saya br nak kol, oke?

hiccup lagi..!

last nite, i received a call from my very own dearest photographer..but before that..

do u remember that i got engaged on 18 Dec 2010?? i hired this photographer. he's good, in fact he's great..! he said my engagement album will be ready in february, although he was asking for 2 months ++, i said fine,.,.because i don't want to rush him lagipun i am busy preparing my wedding, no time to worry about him. because i trusted him. anyway, it was the 7th day of the march already!!, he still owe me the engagement album, in fact pre-wedding album pun blom kasik. i sms him and he asked for extension due to some problem, bla, bla,, bla,,i said oke lah..fine,.!

oke sambung ayat kat atas tadi..last nite, he called and tell me yang laptop dia kena curik..sedangkan dia tgh finalized my engagement punya album..all photos ada dlm laptop and laptop dia kena rembat!!!

oh sh*t..oh sh*t kan???? cuak oke..though i sympathized him for losing his laptop, but i was freaking out thinking that:

"OH EMM GEE..dah lah gambar bertunang i yg

cantik2 ada sikit je!..

dah la i takkan bertunang lagi dlm hidup yg sementara ini!..

abehla..ya Allah ya Tuhanku sedihnya"

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jadi serta merta soalan ni terpacul keluar dari mulut:

"jadi gambar tunang saya semua habislah?? dah takdelah???" dalam hati dah mula berkira2 duit nak hire lawyer, nak saman aje dia ni..

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n dia jwb "yg editted dah takde, abis langsung.."..

i asked again, "yg editted? ohh yg raw ada lagi ke takde jugak..??"

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and he answered..

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*astaghfirullahalazim*. cuak nak mamp oke aku ni??

to be continued.

kad saya comel?

*suke!!!!*

hari ni 9 haribulan mac,, dah 9 hari lah kad jemputan kahwin disebarkan kepada para jemputan.. ramai org puji kad tu..yeahhh!

entry ni bukan nk BERLAGAK ye atau apa2 yg seperti itu..just nak express feeling gembira yang teramat sangat dan bersyukur, yelah, setelah menghadapi karenah pencetak kad yang pain in the a*s sgt2..my cards turned out just fine..alhamdulillah..alhamdulillah..bersyukur..saya sgt gembira.

terima kasih kepada kwn2 yg memuji..u've made my day!!!! like,..seriously..HUGS&KISSES..

by the way, sapa nak kad masih boleh..bagik je alamat dgn apa cara sekalipun oke???
and please..please don't go tempah your invitation card dekat kedai kad kahwin amazon pertama complex..! if i hv to repeat this 1000 times, i will! :)

hiccups..

we are experiencing a few hiccups..small and annoying ones.. contoh?
- cuti kahwin yang limited..akibat tidak di-permanent-kan lagi sampai skrg. terima kasih.
- pakej pelamin + pakaian bersanding "lengkap" tak sediakan "corset"..lengkap kan? buduh..but thanks to my beautiful ikeen,, saved my day.
- butik pelamin yg tak organize. sekejap kata cmni, sekejap kata cmtu..kalau tak kerana duit da letak, dah lama aku berambus.
- doorgift yang menyeksakan, namun masih boleh repair..insyaallah.
- harga setem yg extreme. byk kad cuba utk dihantar by hand..
dll.

SERIOUSLY in a bad mood. keep away!

sila fikir kuat.

percaya atau tidak, semua perkara dalam wedding list telahpun berjaya untuk:

- disediakan sampai siap; atau

- telah disediakan tapi (oleh sebab tak boleh disiapkan awal2) akan disiapkan dekat2 nak sampai tarikh nanti.

patutlah tak panic. sekarang adalah masa untuk fikir kuat-kuat, apa lagi yang tertinggal.? cepat fikir!

cuti?

another big question comes to mind,,..how to plan cuti? especially when the wedding and menyambut menantu are separated by one week...i can't imagine working in between events..our minds are focused on so many things but work!! we are going to be exhausted because of the kenduri lagi, pindah masuk rumah baru lepas tu, mentally and physically man!!..

my nature of work doesn't really tie me up so tightly, in other words i can cuti panjang2..but wan's nature of work prohibits him from taking long leaves..kesiannya dia! dah la dgn bos baru!! if tak ley cuti panjang, when should we go for our first honeymoon then?? (or should we just settled with our 2nd honeymoon in July?? thus that becomes THE ONLY honeymoon??) (plus, in july we are no longer pengantin baru, are we??)
whatever happens, wan needs to decide soon..so it will not b too late to make a reservation there..whatever/however his decision is going to be, i'm with him.

guess lists.

let see.. i've been to three different primary schools, two secondary schools, asasi undang2, dgree law bls and degree law llb n currently working in mindef..there are so many groups of people that i would like to invite.. but the big question is "if i invite them, will they come to my wedding?"

that fact kinda scares me a lot..the fact that people won't come..because there are few friends whom i did not attend their weddings, though for valid reasons, but still i did not attend. Besides that, some of them lives outside lembah klang, JOHOR for instance, i have quite a few Johor friends....will they care to come.?

some, though they live in shah alam, when invited, they already said, kl jauhlah..itu lah ini lah..shah alam jauh? belum johor lagi..kedah?? kelantan?! haih.

i am in fact being paranoid. :) mum said, jemput aje lah..insyaallah dorg mesti dtg.

♥ing and ♥d.

Is there still exist a single word to describe what i feel counting the months left before he becomes mine? Nope. I don't think so.

It's all about him and it's all about me. I don't give a damn about nobody. ♥~

tinggal 2 kali gaji je.

hari ni hari gaji. pejam celik, pejam celik, tinggal lagi dua kali gaji je lagi *cuak*

the shoe story - ending.

i bought myself one new shoe. black. (it's about time anyway)
wan bought me one new shoe. black jugak. for hantaran.

the end~

the shoe story

Wan is buying me a pair of heels to put on one of the dulang. I asked for a black shoe, a decent heels that i can wear to work. Not as high as the one on top because i think those are for special occasions or events and definitely not for work, not very comfy. I put that picture because i think that heels soooooo gorgeous!

Tomorrow is pre-wedding photoshoot day. I am in need of a new black office shoes for tomorrow and for the following days at work!..I'm left with shoes any other colour but black!! Tomorrow everything is about black!! Get it? This story is really about money. Yes, i'm broke. Though salary day is 3 days away, i can't afford to buy one today!..and i am restraining myself from credit card, NO..!!

Oke, truthfully this entry has no story at all, just me whining for a new pair of black shoes during the remaining money-less day..

no more deal with that crazy tailor

baju wan yang ditempah akhirnya selamat diambil. Boleh pun pakcik tu jahit elok2.

cuma timing dia mmg irritating!! dah lah pada asalnya janji 30 Oktober da siap, kita kasi dia extension smpai 20 November, baru siap. Then, dah try tp tak sedap pakai kena la alter. janji siap alter 27nov, tapi 28nov baru siap...bila dia dah siapkan, dia push kita suruh amek hari tu jugak, jgn kita lambat..amboi org tua ni,, dia lambat bukan maen lama sebulan!!!!! kita dia suro dtg amek haritu jugak (mmg takde masalah pun kami nk ambil hari tu, tp ni soal prinsip)

lega apabila tak perlu berurusan lagi dgn dia. dengan ini, pakcik tersebut secara officialnya di BANNED..!

kalau siapa nak pegi tempah baju kat pasar rakyat medan mara, yg byk tailor2 berderet ni, bg tailor lelaki make sure u don't go find pakcik ni..kalau tailor tu pangkat pakcik2, lupakan aja..tp kalau pangkat abg2 je, attitude mereka oke, kerja mereka pun sgt oke. tp sila hantar awal2 sbb ada tendency dorg ni siapkan baju lewat at least seminggu dari tarikh yg dia janji mula2.

si tailor gila!

went to medan mara today, should have picked up wan's baju melayu, but then the tailor didn't do well..!! the baju melayu becomes too big that made wan seemed bigger horizontally..it's oke, although we already gave him 20days extension, and although he made such a gigantic baju melayu, it's oke.
but it's not oke when we complained and asked him to alter the baju melayu, he ticked off..he raised his voice (a bit) to me telling me that i should have called him to the changing room when wan was trying the baju melayu so that he'll know how much to cut! dah la bila wan on the way ke changing room he literally ordered me to follow wan..hamboi, main suro2 pastu tinggi2 suara.haih..lawan tokey nampak?? tu lah some melayu kalau bisnes, customer tak nak jaga. tak dpt recommendation la ngok...hangin tak pasal2 org tua ni..menopause kot? hahaha..
man, that wasn't cool at all..!!! so i gave him until saturday to finish altering, and of course, revenge is coming ur way, kau tunggu yo lah..!!

by the way, we are supposed to stop by masjid negara to pick up the certificate of kursus kahwin that we attended last week, but seriously, we forgot, until it was too late (as in: da malam, org kursus kahwin tu da balik)..hmm..